"Drew Raffe"

i hate waiting to see if things work out. i’ve done everything on my end, now i just have to sit and wait. i want this more then i thought i would. i don’t know what i will do if i don’t get it, i guess just continue existing like i’ve done for the past year. it’d be nice if it happen. to be honest, it gave me a glimpse of the future. i saw a light at the end of the tunnel that i would get out of this funk and be successful. now if it doesn’t happen… i don’t know what i’m going to do. i don’t want to spend the rest of my life working retail. i want to work for a news station. technical director is my goal. i’ll get there… it will just take a lot of work. and moving to waco and getting this job will help 100x. and… if sandra would leave with me… i feel as if it would benefit her just as much as it would me. i think we are just to people that are in desperate need of a change of scenery.